Dear Daddy

I wish I knew if you could hear me when I say I'm sorry.

Tryna figure out if the way I'm feeling is normal.

Missing the act of missing you and knowing that I would see you again.

 Hearing you say is that my mama would make my heart melt no matter what, and maybe I should have told you that. Should’ve said I love you more, and let you know I wasn't mad, or let you know that I understood your absence.

I wish you knew me so you could understand the way I loved, I was just ashamed of not being mad at you when everyone else was .but I loved you. I love you, I just didn't know how  to say it . I didn't know how to love, and I'm still struggling.

But I want to know if you could still feel my love.

I want to know if you could feel my regret, did you have any regret? I want to know if you know that my love always outweighed my hate

My anger was implanted because if it was up to me I would have never used that emotion.

I just wish I knew more of you before all I had were memories. I wish I knew you. But I love you for everything I knew and all I didn't.

 I just wish I knew.