Dear Depression

Dear Depression,

Oh, sweet depression

How you pulled me in

How you hurt me

Abused me

And it still didn’t sink in

All the nights spent worrying

All the times spent crying

Days upon days just spent lying

In a bed which didn’t comfort me

And it still didn’t sink in

Constant fear of that little voice

Thinking that I wasn’t enough

Replaying scenes over and over in my head

Still stuck on that fucking bed

And it still didn’t sink in

I need to change

I need to move forward

And although I know you will be there

I will get away and take care

Of myself, for once in my life

I will get through this

I have many times before

I’ve had to pull myself up out that door

Into my crazy and messed up world because

It has finally sunk in

I will have conversations

And I will be heard

No longer fearing each and every word

That comes out of my mouth because

It has finally sunk in

I am not alone

I am not someone to be ignored

I am not useless

I am not pathetic

It has finally sunk in

So, sweet depression

You may still be there

But I no longer will I stand to share

My memories and my life with you

And I will get through these days because

It has finally sunk in

I am amazing

I am sweet

And I am determined to get back on my feet

And take back my life because

It finally sank in

I’m moving on

I’m growing up

And you can come if you only keep up

But I will never listen ever again

Because it finally sank in

Sincerely,

Every part of me