A ways back we go, Back
To when I rememer our first meeting. When
I was a thirteen year old child, Back when I
Cherished the simple things and I realized
That life would be much harder, you were that
Iron fist that beat me and left me, you
struck me down, and you left me to die. I Couldn't
get back up. Our second meeting, when you would control
my thoughts in the back of that car, and you would tell me
that I would be forgotten, just a 300 mile lost memory. I
Can't forget our third meeting, when I stood
for what was wrong, took that pill up
into my system hoping to soar away from you, and
Instead nearly cost myself my family, you took
my friends and forced me away and into a
dark room where I could not stand
and left me to die once again. Our final and
last meeting, where i begged ou to leave and asked
you to leave as you dug yourself into my wrists, for
you desired my blood, my life
and the knife that once stood in my back.
Depression you are my Old
companion, my life long friend and
have been there for me, from when my new
eyes barely blinked to when I no longer wanted to see. Memories
flooded me like a tidal wave and you pretended that you Came
to help me, but instead you struck me down, back
to back you washed away my happiness and took from
me what I held dearly. Find the
Nearest rop you said, make sure you're dead
you said, hang your self like and ornament, you said.
But it is I who spoke back, it is I
who can be strong, it is I who realized
that I can overcome, it is I that
can touch, that can can feel, but you left a nasty taste in
my mouth. And now I banish you, I order
you to leave my mind and my body, I agree to
learn from you, but to banish you from myself, and to make
sure that you aren't my last dying wish. Things
will no longer be the same, you can not have the awesome
that I have in me, you can not have me. You
can not have me. You must've
left, for I am worthy of love, I can regain the trust I had
and I will survive. I'll learn forgiveness, learn to
be honest. I'll tell you secrets, dreams, and what I can be
but I would rather tell you that I am letting go, flying free.
Learning to think and remembering to speak. I
am turning the upper hand, and I will and can have
all that I want to be. The
strength you have given me, I thank you for. We will
not cross paths again, and I will be sure to
keep you at bay. For I am now wanting to laugh and live.
Awesomeness is now my Thoughts.
It is now my dreams, my being, my fantasy and my reality, and it can be everything if you let it be.
Sometimes, you must make Life
worth living, so breathe in that air, because it is
your life you must live, and you can make it truly awesome.