Dear Father

Dear Father, how are you?

Are you OK?

Have you been living life?

Have you been happy?

Why do I care?

Why do I ask?

You hurt me,

You abandoned me,

You ruined me.

I hate you

I love you

You’re my father

You’re my nightmares

You’re the one I hope to never see

You’re the one I want to see

You broke me

You cared for me

You used me

You won’t let me go

You can’t let me go

I miss you

I’m glad you’re gone

I want you to care about me

I want you to stay away

I want you to fight for me

Why won’t you fight for me

Why don’t you seem to care

I just want you to fight

I just want you to care

Dear Father

Why can’t I let you go?

Why don’t I want you to let me go?

Why can’t I stop caring?

Why can’t you be my father again?