Dear Future Husband

Dear future Husband,

Please be patient with me. 

I am learning to love myself,

Therefore I cannot yet give you my heart freely. 

Dear future husband,

Please know that I care. 

I might withdraw from you at times,

But that's because I'm battling my fears. 

Dear future Husband,

I want to give you children. 

I want to nurture and treasure our babies,

But I'm scared that since I barely love me I might not love them. 

Dear future Husband,

I want to submit to you. 

But I've been at war with myself for decades,

So I'm not sure if that's even something I can do. 

Dear future Husband,

I want to stand by your side. 

I'm scared to trust another,

But everything inside me wants to be your bride. 

Dear future Husband, 

Please wait for me. 

I know I am a difficult lock to open,

But I'm hoping you are the key.