Dear Future Self...

Dear Future Self...
I really hope that you are not the
Me that I am now.
The one who is too patient
For her own good.

The one who speaks 
Only to be outspoken,
Who abandons herself 
For everone else. 
Dear Future Self:

I hope you've learned to say no.
"No Mom," "No Dad,"
"That's not what I want."
Think about what I want,
What you want. 

Think about the people
that I've known.
The ones I could have left behind
Because they've only held me--
Us--Behind. 

So far behind that I was trapped
In a cage that was
hers, 
And not mine. 
Are they gone?

Dear Future Self, 
Have you learned how to 
Follow your dreams?
Do you know
What your heart, your soul

wants? 
Because I don't.
Or maybe I do, but I
Just hope that we can persue 
Our goals and passions.

Dear Future Self...
I really hope that you are a better me
Than the me I am now.
It's worth it. Remember.
Just be you.