Dear future self

Dear future self I mean dear crush these feelings that I  got for you is balanced feelings that I got for myself I mean I love you more then I love myself or is it I love me more then I love you I don’t know I’m so confused but I honestly didn’t start feeling love until I met you this is so random it just came all out of the blue because I know these emotions that I’m feeling are these feelings that I think I’m feeling is going to be my killing the overloaded reminiscing about the true love that I’ve been missing but those feelings are extinct they don’t exist no more the love that I had for you is just not it no more you broke me until I just couldn’t bare it no more you left me heartless In ashamed tried to cover up the pain but a huge scar still remains and is something I can’t change in is the time that was a waste the effort I demonstrated tried to work on myself but the love I had for you was desecrating so I procrastinated but that’s my fault I can’t even blame you for that I should have been loving my self more and stayed focus on a bag but thank for the heart break thank you for the minor heart ache now I can find someone better so we can grow and penetrate.