Dear God

Dear God i pray to you but you don't answer I feel as if you have left me for dead like a peraon with cancer Your prophet's say that you'll always love me but my life is so full of hate Is this my fate to cry and live pain while i am being criticized about my weight Then again i can't expect to live as sinner and get help form God God is probably like a two way street and i have to meet him half way But If this is true then his supposed "love" for us is flawed Or his love isn't black and white it's more complex its more in the grey Dear God you say i am your child and your my father If my father had so much power he wouldn't sit back amd watch me suffer But you can't really find my suffering enjoyable if you sent your only son to die for me Dear God i am so lost please answer your son's calls before his suicidal thoughts find him