Dear... Hope

Dear…

I’ve forgotten 

who you are

what you are

Oh well

after all

You cannot miss

what you never

remember

Are you searching

for me?

You really

should stop

It is rather, unnecessary

if I do say so

Since I have

abandoned you

and you have

abandoned me

And I do not think

we can go back, to

what we were before

To…

You are gone

so I have moved on

embracing pain and

fear

But without

whatever you were

I have nothing that

keeps me going

So why do I

keep trudging on

Maybe you

can answer that

for me

Do you want

to come back?

I do not think

that’ll work

after all

you are so often

full of

half-truths

and

lies

How can you

be trusted

Maybe…

never left

but I am too

afraid of

accepting that

because maybe

someday I can 

remember you

and everything will 

change, but if

you were always here

how can anything

change

Goodbye and

hello and

anything that is in between

They say after you reach

rock bottom

you can only go up

So maybe

it is time

to start going up

Okay…

I will trust you

One chance

to make things right

because if this

goes wrong

things may never

be right again

Okay, just once

I’ll trust you

I’ll believe in you

Just once more

… Hope