Dear IDD

Dear IDD You took advantage of me You took advantage of the situation You used it to solve or end a problem you weren't even a part of You saw a way to end this for both parties But didn't see the pain and suffering that came with it You saw how I was an emotional reck I couldn't think straight And took advantage After the matter you told me why you did what you did And told him what had happen I broke I fell apart You kept coming around Started messing with my head Told me to move on and just except what had happened That is was good for me So I started to go to you and just accepted what had happened After a while I found out you didn't tell him and he found out I was crushed you used the information against me You were playing with my head After a while I bumped into him.. He confronted me I couldn't look him in the face I was so hurt for what had happened He said you were the puppet tear Pulling the strings on both ends We kept meeting up to discuss what had been said to us We saw your game and how you were playing it He saw how I wasn't happy How I lost so much weight How I wasn't myself anymore I told him what I was going through How he didn't believe you were putting me though all that So I told him to come over and see for himself He would come over and see how you kept me in the room all the time you were there Wasn't allowed to leave till you left Saw how you would get angry and start to yell I was studying for a test you came home with him You came to me and asked for a kiss I told you let me finish this please the test was today I needed to remember everything it was almost an hour before the test You got mad and took a swing You missed and hit the laptop He was in the living room and heard everything You told him I dropped the laptop and that was the sound .... I was scared to call for help A few days later I asked to be taken and picked up from work You said no I don't want to ask someone else... So I called him he said yes He took me to work and asked about the situation I told him what had happen..... He said he couldn't see that being true.. I gave a sad smile said I know.. He picked me up from work He took me home I cried from the stress I had gone through from work How I couldn't go to you to vent We heard someone outside the car You were there you kept punching the glass Kept causing the entire time He got off and pushed you Told you he didn't believe me and how you were But after seeing how you reacted How you didn't even understand the situation and just lasted out He said he was lucky the glass was there Told you to back up After a while I got into an accident Called you to pick me up.. You told me it was a pain since you were just in that area How you had to go back for me... You asked me to call someone else to pick me up.. I called everyone I could all asked about you... I cried and said he's on his way but is far from here ... I lied You called my sister too.. she called worried I felt crushed... Why would you call her? Why would you ask her to go for me ... I laughed and said I'm ok I'm still in shock he will come for me... I called you said no one could come you gave off a sigh You said ok I'll go.... How could you not be on your way already... You asked me to ask the cops to drop me off somewhere.... I felt so ashame I went to the cop to ask he looked so sorry for me... He took me to the area said if I was actually ok... I smiled with cuts and bruises forming I said yes I should go to the hospital to get check out anyway After a few minutes you showed up... Didn't even get off the car to help me... The coo walked to to your car Told you to take me to the hospital Once in the car you didn't even ask if I was ok... You asked if I liked your hair cut.... Didn't even take me straight to the hospital You went to get food instead We finally went to the hospital You made me go in by myself... It was taking a while.. I wanted to go home... You kept txting asking why it is taking so long.... At the end I came out .. Told you I had bone bruises Had to stay in bed for a while And help to get up and do things... You looked so annoyed Asked if you could just drop me off with my grandparents to watch over me.... I started to cry You were my fiance How can you just push me aside like that You said ok your right For a few days I was in bed You didn't even help me Would eat Infront of me Complain I was just there... He showed up and you were automatically attentive... I knew you were scared of him Wanted to show I was in good hands... You let him see me just not to talk to me... I was crying because I wanted to cry for help I got up to go to the restroom He asked you why you didn't help me... You got upset and said she needs to learn to do it on her own again ... I got better Days have passed you wanted to go to a family thing Made me get ready... We went you left me alone with your family did your own thing.... I was in pain and wanted to go home... He was there saw me in the corner Went to you and told you to be with me ... You got upset and told me time to go home... We took your cousin you just wanted to drop me off So you could go back... The house was a mess Your cousin asked me why I didn't clean.. I said I was in to much pain and can only move around so much at the time You laughed and said no she is just useless right now Doesn't clean or cook.... I started to cry and went to the room I had enough... You got shocked ran to me to apologize I said no leave please I had enough You left .... I called him up told him what had happened Then next day I told you he would be coming over to watch anime You said ok and left He came over and sat with me it was weird.... We talked for a while before I had to run A few more times he came over Helped me around the house and get my body moving I felt loved and supported He would leave and you would come home My happiness would leave with him Fear and sadness would come when you would get home One day he came over we agreed to hang out It been a while since I had gotten better it was time to go to work I went to work and would only work for a while They didn't want to push me I didn't want to go home ... I texted me asking to hang out He said yes I went to the book store were we would meet up I was happy when I would meet up with him And I would go home and your attitude changed You were more around me Said my attitude changed and he liked my glow.. I told him I couldn't keep meeting up without feeling like crap We can't keep going behind his back You agreed told me you would help me leave him I couldn't stay were I wasn't happy I agreed but was scared to He found up and got upset I was scared for my life as you kept throwing all my stuff around.. He showed up to calm you down You took a punch it didn't hurt him He was always into fitness so your punch did nothing He said he deserved it for doing behind your back But the way you had been treating me has gone long enough And how I needed to leave I packed my things and left IDD .. I have so much left to say... But I've gone long enough I jumped here and there... So this poem might not make sense... But I got most of it off my chest ... But you were the only one I've dated that I regret My only regret was coming to you for help If I didn't none of this would have happened I've learned from this mistake And found someone who loved me Dear IDD I hope you learn your mistakes and treat the next with more respect I hope you live your life But don't contact me don't look for me Don't even act like we know each other if we bump into each other Dear IDD this poem is for you