Dear Jalen

Dear Jalen,

It's 2:42 AM and all I could do was think about you, about how I really really love you and how you make me feel happy again. I'm trying my hardest to stay positive and keep my head up but it hurts so bad and its all the time and I cant stop it. It breaks my heart cause I know you want to see me happy and you want me to be here with you but I'm just so far gone. No one really understands depression and I just need you to know I am not getting better, I cant get better depression it's like a drug it oulls you in and drags you down and turns you into a whole nother person and I've reached that point. Sadness, Depression, Fear, Anxiety, Anger, Evil, Insanity, Physco....I've reached and passed all those stages and now I'm just trying to contain them and stay sane for you. I just hope you never leave me cause I need you more than you need me.