Dear John ,

I looked him in his eyes today and my thoughts didnt go beyond casual .

i became vulnerable within in a flash.

i wanted not only him, but us.

what if i made the first move?

would he accept me in my busted up sperries, and hoodie?

he walked closer, pushing his body upon mine 

his heartbeat whispered in my ear and his strong colonge greeted me

with the most beautfiul welcome ive ever came across

i knew i was in love , but nothing like this 

the scent left , and the heartbeat became distant.

the look in his eye scared me 

he revealed a bag of goodies , movie tickets , and this sweat shirt 

a note was left at the bottom of the bag

he ran away leaving dust in the air, which i was breathing in 

i love you too , what he said ..

he said 

i love you too 

i woke up to find whipped cream and cheetos on my face from my baby sister 

my reality changed 

the dream was to picture reality with you 

sadly the reality threw away my dream 

i love you more....