Dear little brother

I believe I was only 6 when you were born

My first little sibling

I remember holding you in my arms 

and being told,

"be careful, with the baby."

Someone always had to watch me when I was with you 

because "the baby was almost as big as me."

Well, thats what the older people used to say. 

As you grew up I did too

You would always cling to me

I would change your diaper and run your bathwater

And we would always play together. 

But was very cautious with anyone else

You were very silent at times.

And easily became anixious within a crowd

when it came to interaction with family 

you became stiff  

unable to speak or move a muscle

mom would say,

"go talk to your brother, he's autistic and doesn't know how interact with people."

I worry alot about him

She follows with, "But he talks to you."