dear loneliness

Dear  loneliness

Dear loneliness "

Feeling entrapped,

Around these thoughts of pain ;

Holding in my hands, no longer alive

But mentally dead from the inside.

Everyday struggles in life,

Even if it is running short of money, not having friends, ashamed yourself, family problems , phone problem ,

Yet struggling with those,

Undefined thoughts in your mind, and keeping myself alive.

No longer talking to anyone

Once upon a time a loquacious person, fun jolly,

But as these days went longer and longer with me

Those thousand miles, went away from me,

You kept yourself away from the ones, away from the ones

I know what pain I have in my ass,

But do not know to tell one

A massive transformation, becoming philosophical with life.

Trying to analyze

Things around

Yet floundering,

Thinking of a girl who suffers to every phase of life, the same

( how do you feel) obnoxious right!! Silencing yourself from

Closed ones, keeping yourself

Shut and alive in claustrophobia,

Who no one knows there, only you

Not want to wake up from a dream,

Still leaving in it, do not want to face, but to chase.

Holding that extreme anger of coal ready to be thrown at you, but not thrown

Yet keeping myself away, but rigid to be thrown.

Shutting yourself in a room,

Lone, isolate ( alienate)

Fucking !everyone, someone

Shrieking with loud voices,

Crying! Crying! Feeling so deprived of yourself, feeling restless and uncertain

But yet living in loneliness, yet living in loneliness.

So, dear loneliness I am not here to face you, but to chase, as every moment of my life is so rigid that am reckless to be broken, so do not compel me if I chase you,

And do not get rid of me,

But to face me dear loneliness

But to face me dear loneliness ####