Dear Love,

Dear Love,

     I’ve heard your name whispered my whole life 

          sung on the big screens

          drilled into me ever since I’ve been old enough to dream

     I’ve looked for you in every passing car

          strangers faces 

          yet, I haven’t seen you 

          not even in a glance 

     I have to apologize, because I’ve used 

          your name in vain more times than 

          I know how to count

     I have to apologize because 

          I’m scared 

               I’ve lost my way 

               I’ve never known the way 

               into my own locked heart 

     you would think it would be open 

     my smile is a locked 

                           window 

          and I can’t find the key 

     I’ve looked and looked too. 

     In her blue eyes,

          I swam halfway down until I realized 

               I’d forgotten to hold my breath

          you weren’t hiding in her eyes 

     nor in the search for the perfect words 

          to text 

               him. 

     Love, you were never meant to be sought after

          if I vow to stop searching, 

               will you promise your way into my arms? 

          Forgive me,

             -O