Dear loverboy,

Dear loverboy, 

Unfortunately, my doubts overflow my morals.

Until dawn, I sob myself into an unbearable sorrow.

Never will there be a day I waste time thinking of a tomorrow without you.

Nevertheless, you are always the one on my mind.

To me, everything else seized to exist. 

To me, you are my intangible escape.

It's funny, because I know so much until I realize I don’t.

It was never the right time or place.

Living in this everlasting ecstasy.

Longing for something that is simply nonexistent. 

Do you know who I really am?

Do I still make your heart flutter?

Even now, I can’t wrap my head around it all.

Everyday, I struggle in fear of such trivial things. 

Afterall, you changed my perceptions.

And yet, I sit in denial of it all.

Tell me, what do you see?

Tell me you never loved me.

How burdensome.

Hiraeth is afloat. 

Until death, until death.