Dear mama

Dear mom,

When you got sick I got mad

Mad that life got so complicated for us all

Mad that I was no longer able to act my age and go out with my friends

But most importantly, mad that this had to happen to you

I get mad when I see women your age out enjoying life

Mad that out of everyone, this had to happen to you

Mad that you're suffering and I can't do anything to make it better

Mad that I can't communicate with you

Mad that you're immobile, knowing how much you loved to go out

Mad that you will not be able to see my graduate

Mad that I will no longer be able to fulfill my dreams of buying you a house and sending you to your dream vacation

I saved a voicemail you sent me a few years back telling me it was late and I needed to come home

Back then when I listened to it, I got mad and rolled my eyes

Today that I listened to it, the sound of your voice put a smile on my face

Life threw many blows at you and each time you'd face them with a smile

I never knew your smile would mean so much to me

Keep smiling momma!