Dear Mind

Dear Mind,

Why must I trudge

through the sludge of my soul to find you

must it be so easy 

to forget you exist 

to give you away to the insanity 

let you be festered with my desires 

oh mind have I lost you? 

Forever forgotten, forever exhausted 

reliving the same moments

fraught with sad acceptance 

yet hoping for some difference 

oh mind I have lost you

swallowed by the sludge of my soul

lost to the bubbling black mass 

as my hands rip through hair 

frantically searching for remnants of sanity 

now forced to call the sludge "master"

puppeteer of my thoughts 

Dear mind, 

You are lost