Dear my love...

Dear my love,

I don’t know what it’s been with you this morning, but I’m sorry... for what I did or didn’t do. you’re probably angry or frustrated or upset but here’s what i have to say, just hear me out, please..

I’m busy, if that’s not obvious enough.. Can you please just appreciate the time I give you? I’m sorry I can’t give you all the time and attention you want in the world, but I’m doing my best here. I’m not trying, but actually doing. I’m working hard, not just for me, but for us. Can’t you just realize that? I want us to work hard now so we can enjoy our life in the future later. I push myself to work and practice physically, mentally, emotionally. I am in so much pain at this point. Yes, I’m sorry I’ve been so busy. Yes, I’m sorry for the times I’m at dance practice almost half of the day. Yes, I’m sorry I probably can’t satisfy your need for attention to its fullest. But I am doing my best to find time for you. Can’t you just appreciate that? I understand you’re busy too, but this is what communication is for. I’m trying to reach out to you, but I’m so drained, I can’t even figure out what’s wrong anymore. Please cut me some slack, my love. I haven’t been pushed this much, physically, in such a long time. If you’re just playing around with me or just thinking that I’m overreacting about this, I’m sorry. I don’t know anymore. I know you hate when I say “I don’t know” but our arguments just confuse me. From my perspective, it seems like I didn’t give you enough attention and I’m so sorry, my love. But trust me, as time passes and I get used to how hectic competition season is again, I will give you so much more attention and make everything up to you, whatever I’ve been slacking on. I’m sorry I’ve been such a terrible girlfriend, but I knew this day would come, having another argument so soon. I was hoping it wouldn’t happen for a while. But other than that, it doesn’t change my love for you. I will still be fighting, I will still push for us, I will strive to be the best girlfriend I can be, I will keep working hard for us. Despite the anger or frustration you may be feeling, it will get better, okay? I know you hate me saying this, but you just have to be patient. Great things come to those who wait, and I believe that you have the potential for that. Again, I’m sorry for what I did or didn’t do, but we just need to communicate, please. I will always find time to talk to my baby, despite how busy I become. I will always find time for you, okay? Don’t you worry... Thank you for dealing with me, I’m such a baby sometimes and I hate it. But I’m just saying all this because instead of arguing even more with you, I just want to fix this. I hate arguing, especially with you. But please, can we just fix this? Together? I just want to talk to my baby and laugh at the most random things ever. I love laughing with you. I just want you to be happy. You are so important to me. I don’t want to argue. Tell me what’s wrong and I’ll help to fix it. We won’t get anywhere if we just ignore the problem instead of fixing it. I don’t want to be that couple fighting all the time. I just want to love and laugh with you. I want us to push through life together with all we got. You are such a strong person, you’re literally the strongest person i know. I am so proud of you for going through all this mess and still manage to put a smile on your face. I am so proud of you for all you’ve done and who you are. I want to make you just as proud. Thank you for everything... I love you. And I will always be here. I will always push for us. I love you, never forget that... Please text me when you see this.. or not, whatever you’re feeling really. But I’ll be here doing my homework haha I love you, baby.

Love, your baby