Dear my worst enemy

Dear my worst enemy,

When did we last speak?

This morning as we fought over school?

This evening as we chose what to eat?

Though, recent or long past is moot,

When by my side you never leave.

Always with me, sometimes hidden,

We never can find grounds to agree.

You hate what I love.

You scorn what I want to be.

I fear what you threaten.

I dread what you scream.

Whenever I show weakness,

You never fail to seize

Every opportunity

To ruin my hopes and dreams.

I've fallen far beyond redemption.

My tears long wasted by my own agony.

The only reason I still endure,

For the ever present "possibly."

I'd rip the very sky asunder

If I could then be guaranteed

A peaceful life without you present,

Never to return... If only.

I know now more than I ever have.

I will not delude myself with fantasy.

You are harmful in near every way,

But without you, my life would cease.

Your selfish whims have earned my rage,

But I now know why you foster greed.

Your simplistic thoughts wield no awareness,

But how could I ever match your honesty?

You delight in my failure and suffering,

But I caused you wounds you cannot treat.

Beyond our goals and the end of our tale,

We will still stay bound. We cannot be free.

If war is our fate, then there is nothing to say,

Yet I hope for the chance we may "possibly"

Put down our swords, perhaps draw a truce,

and forever be rid of "my worst enemy."

I'd much rather cooperate than hate.

Sincerely,

Us, because we are part of me.