Dear Old Oppressor of Mine

I love you because you made the sun shine brighter

I love you because you made me your queen

I loved you because you were sweet, you were kind, and best of all because you loved me.

But was my love for you the same kind of love you had for me?

You did make my world spin and heart beat faster but it changed after a time

You made my heart beat faster in fear of you You made my world spin because you threw me against a wall

And all you said was I hurt you because I love you

That was your justification for breaking me into pieces, for stealing the light in my world

That was your justification for allowing me to believe that it was okay to hit me, to break me, to make me scared of the inquisitive stare

So, I left

I left the love you had for me because it was the toxic kind of love

The love that drowns you and does not allow you to come up for air

Because I love myself, I am leaving my torturer

Because I love myself, I am taking off the shackles of your oppressive love

Because I love myself, I will not stand for this mistreatment

I will rise, like a Phoenix born from the ashes

I will be born anew

Today I met a boy

He smiled like the sun

He taught me what true love is

He showed me I could trust again

His love was not dark; it was pure and true

But now I am going on

Nevertheless, dear old oppressor of mine I am writing this to you

To tell you I am a new woman

Once broken and pathetic

To whole and confident

Now I am strong

Now I am beautiful

Now I know what love really means

But one thing I have learned, is that I must forgive

So because I feel sorry for you, because I am a stronger person And because for some twisted reason, I still feel a connection to you

I forgive you.