Dear Perfection
Dear perfection,
You found me as an innocent child
I gazed in the hot pink mirror with daisies and sunflowers
My hair in tight pigtails that pulled at my scalp
My chubby cheeks that were always called cute
I didn’t like what stared back
As I grew, so did you
Kids threw names out of their mouths
Not caring what the effects would be to a small girl
Nasty comments filled every crevice of my brain managing to control my thoughts
Where there should have been happiness and daylight, there was a great void of darkness
The fire in me started to dwindle to a scarce ember
The light from my eyes was fading like a scar finally starting to heal
I didn’t like what stared back
Brains over beauty they say
But what if none apply
Failed expectations
Failed tasks
Who knew red marks and a letter in an upper corner could determine a state of mind
I could not reach you, no matter how much I tried
I noticed the dying of a dream in myself
I noticed the all the grades that defined me
I didn’t like what stared back
A new mindset
A new attitude
Fuel has been added to the fire that once struggled to thrive
The sun is starting to come out in the deepest and darkest parts
The eyes that only saw the imperfections now see effort and acceptance
While you were with me for a while it is time to move on
Your hold on me has lost its firm grasp
I am starting to like what stares back