Dear S,

You are tall and loud 

Most can see and hear you coming from a mile away 

You weren't a mile away 

Your humor, a little erotic for some 

Most would be incrediously horrified actually

You don't horrify me  

Your smile is bright and warm 

Most believe you're happy 

Most can't see the pain 

I believed you to be my first

You constantly verified my thoughts 

Or so I thought  

I was fed sweet lies behind green and hazel eyes 

You seemed to be genuine 

But your hand wasn't 

I saw with one sense while the others began to shake

You didn't even hesitate 

Your hand didn't let go 

I saw you 

But you didn't see me?

Did you see my hesitation?

The stutter in my voice?

The wideness of my eyes?

The small tear threatening to slip?

My mind seems to believe you betrayed me 

Because you did

You did 

You did 

You did  

You betrayed my heart

You betrayed my love 

You betrayed my soul 

Am I going crazy?

Were we even together?

Did we mean anything. . .

to you?

It did to me. . .

You said you thought I moved on but, 

We shared intamite words all along. . .

You thought I moved on?

Did you?

Did you? 

My mind is still telling me no

My heart wants me to believe 

But, 

You betrayed me

You betrayed me 

You did.  

Now I walk as if you never exsited 

You try to speak as if we're friends 

I smile painfully 

"Hi" 

It's short, quick, and sweet  

My feet carry me away in a hurry 

Because I have somewhere to be 

Far from you

Don't utter my name 

Don't make excuses  

Stop 

Stop before 

Stop befor I

Stop before I believe 

Stop before I believe you 

Your smile

Your eyes 

Your lies  

Then there my heart lays crushed in two