Dear sadness, why now?

Dear sadness, why now? Why do you stay with me out of all times? ... You are blocking the sun.. The sun I use to see everyday, the sun that I loved to wake up to, the sun that helped me get through the worst days. You always use to visit, but now you decided to stay.. Why? Why now? Is it because I'm almost  a teenager or is it because I'm experiencing the real world? ... You know I was doing fine with anxiety. I was having a blast and now you want to join? Throughout all the years in my life you wanted to stay in the worst year of my life? Why? Why is that!? ... I really would appreciate it if you left me alone for just a few days.. If you'd let me see the sun again just one more time. So, dear sadness, why now?

(I can handle harsh words so be honest and give me some feedback!)