Dear self reconciliation
These words intertwine my fingers
‘Til I wrote them down.
These thoughts will never be shared
face to face
While my feet still walk this court.
Memories of the good pollute my mind
And my trust of other people.
My voice becomes lost in the words that others,
Have told me over and over again.
I lost myself in the flames of the wreckage
Along with my friend,
But I can find myself again.
I cannot have what was never mine.
I don’t escape what is meant to be lost
And I don’t find what is meant to be found
I cannot live the life that was meant to be lived
By someone who was forever lost and never found.
There are letters on my jersey
Letters in the newspaper
A letter in my hand
It was a release, they said
It was not my fault, they lied
It is just time, I knew
It should Have Been Me
It should have been me
I was worried about a good time
It should have been me
I cry
I lie, to myself
I don’t understand why it was not me
It should have been me
I-it-me-my-fault
It should have been me