Death Lingers Here

My world was turning crashing. I try to stand one hand against the wall. Efforts with no reward left in vain. Aching painfully tears of frustration running down my face. Everything is turning. I hear a scream. Plates and pans, water running. I lie in that spot and just rest. Waiting. My world turning. I’m in a blur and I’m lost. Loving the feel of 0 gravity. Cloudy, tired, high. Thump…thump…thumppp I’ve had this feeling before. I think ‘Déjà vu’. Painfully aching sad smile turns at the corner of my lips. A painful turn of my head. Our eyes lock… Gosh let me die in peace. Thump…thump…thumppp Can’t think straight. Can’t. Don’t want to think straight Just lay down. Lay… Just be Thump thump My head I need silence No more sound End this madness Make my world still forever Lay in silence…wait How long? Too loud Too bright Stop it Let me go Be still Stop breathing Stop Silence It’s fading I’m fading No An illusion It’s back and I can’t stand. Stop it Let me go Turning my head in agony Clouds crash I whimper in despair Let me go…please Thum tump Soft baby tears Hush… Lay my head Wheels turning…fast Close my eyes Too loud Let me go Let go of me…