Deceptive Tears

I have these warm moist tears running down my cheeks Distance in joy, near in defeat Pain throbbing throughout my bones Fear slithering through my blood isolation, deprived From truth Feelings are all I see … The lies that they speak to me Unknowingly I believe I filter my deception within my mind Crushing the thoughts with my emotions Quietly shrieking in the background of me Sober thoughts suddenly penetrates my mind I draw closer to the heart of rejection , what exactly do I seek? Perfection, Joy, Approval ? All the above ? I’m not sure for my mind is wavering And my heart untrustworthy I’m lost in the wilderness hoping That someone come and finds me …I search and search for the missing puzzle piece That would perfectly define me …