Deep inside my skin

I'm drowning in water I'm breathing in fire My bones are wires My tears are hotter and My walls are made of butter Scratching my skin Biting my lips Blush red Holding those tears back But there's just no win Sweatin my hands off Cause my insecurities are showing all 'You're acting weird, so knock it off' You told me I wasn't good enough Being me wasn't enough to you I'm sorry I had to be so rough So I spread my wings and flew But I came back to you Now I was a prisoner and I'm stuck with you Please don't laugh I'm not ready for that I'm trying to be myself But you can't accept that I'm drowning in tears I'm turning blue Cause green wasn't good enough for you I'm too scared to show that side That no one knows so I try to hide You say 'just be yourself' But when I do you whisper 'it's doesn't suit herself' So I go back to the book shelf Just like everyone else I'm trying to be myself You criticize me You tell me it's too much But I'm only sixteen 'I don't care it's an ugly touch' You say don't like this and you don't like that You don't like my body and I can't handle that It's too much for me to handle I'm not here to fight a battle I just need a love apple Cause you see I'm really fragile You say you don't like my nose The face that I hold The skin that I wear And everything that I hold Cause it contains too much ugly For you to take in all the woe You took in everything he said and made them into power instead You kept them inside of my head You repeat the words he says Replaying them over as I cry in my bed I need your knowledge and memories I don't need you to be burning down my fantasies The one responsible for this The one for taking it all in Is the brain that I take within The one who keeps my insecurities deep inside my skin