DEEP WITHIN

Deep Within 

Loneliness becomes me,  
My poor heart cannot take no more  
Heartache overtakes me,  
I can't sleep or even eat , 
All I think about is you faraway and my life feels  
So gray ,empty without you . 
Words are words and calls are calls , 
But true love is holding ,loving , touching and given your all . 
I'm drowning in this pain with no ransom for my shame.  
I hold on to every word you have to say to me , 
Every night and every day how much you love me . 
But this love is on line , on a phone in a photo on the internet  
All the way in ''Paris '' a place I have not seen yet ! 
Your not easily forgotten but nevertheless left behind in my mind at times , 
Time can,t repair my fragile mind and my heart don't you see what this  
Is doing to me ? 
Their's no evidence of my murder of what is going on inside my heart , 
Just soulless glassy eyes from a long nights of goodbyes , 
His fingerprints can't be traced but his branding on my heart can't be erased.  
His love has me in bondage, 
I know he is older then me and old enough to be my father , 
But I loved him enough to hang on to something that has not happen yet ! 
He's not here, but I still feel his touch and his words of love touching me  
In my heart all over , But then the pain of him not being with me cuts me  
Deep within my skin ,Deep with in my heart . 
Cutting slowly night and day , 
His eyes aren't here but I still feel his lust, 
I lie awake with him on my mind, I cry out to God to forgive me another time . 
I can't be fixed I'm stuck in time of a love I met on line . 

Lilly Emery (C)