Delusional Memories

Who was I
Before society
Told me
Who I should be?
Was that when
The girl 
In the picture
Matched the girl 
In the mirror?
 

Now, 
My fraternal twin
Helplessly smiles 
While somehow managing
To look 
Far from helpless.
Dazed in a 
Delusional memory
Where the colors
Don't seem to
Add up.
The sky oozes blue
Grass vibrant green;
Filters don't show
Drought. 
Minds thirsting for
Constant appraisal 
Congratulating myself 
Upon reaching 
183 likes.
 

But,
My mascara streaks
In a trail of tears
Easily edited out.
Sobbing because 
I'm attempting
To please
Half an audience 
I don't know
The other half 
Doesn't even care.
 

Believing I needed
A change, 
I decided 
To please myself. 
For once,
Posting a pic
Showcasing 
Every scar
Both
Mentally 
And 
Physically.
 

The caption screaming
How I dreamed 
Crooked teeth
Went unnoticed 
By the fact that
People were happy
Just to see me
Smile.
Begging,
That someday
Everyone would realize
The skies in
Our pictures
Don't match the sky
In our world.