Depressed and Stressed

Dear Therapist,

I guess depressed and stressed is an understatement

trying to search for words in my mind but it’s vacant.

My life is passing quickly by my eyes

realizing that people have lows and highs.

The only feeling you get is numb when they apologize

cause inside you know the sorry is a bunch of lies.

After that, they try to walk away to avoid the pain.

They make sure that you take all the blame.

Putting it all on me making me feel insane.

My mind blank weighing it down like a chain.

My girl talked to my friends about all that I promised

not realizing they tell me all her insulting comment.

Makes sense, I trusted her too much I admit.

Like the jokes about my weight she said was all whit.

I stopped eating for a month after that.

Lost the weight but she didn’t notice the flat.

I’ve lost trust in people I see every day

took all the anger inside me, pushed them away.

I sit there trying not to hate the individual.

I keep my thoughts away and hidden invisible.

I didn’t know keeping all of my thoughts in was impossible

because in my mind it all flies together and is volatile.

I tried to look for help asking if she could stay

but every time I asked she would just push me away.

Told me it was my fault that the relationship had a downfall

the only thing I could do all night was crawl up and bawl.

Things were finally ended and I felt lost in the fog.

She hides when she sees me and we have no dialogue.

I see it now, she never showed any affection.

If I tried to get close all I would get is aggression.

I just want someone to lead me out of this darkness.

Someone to show me my land is not full of starkness.

Someone to get my mind out of the deep loneliness

to bring me up and high above my lowliness.

I’m at the point where one last fight can take me down.

Please guide me and help me to end this breakdown.

Sincerely,

D & S