Depression

Your always here i need you gone. I want a friend, I only need one. They always say why you so sad? What they don't know, is that I want to know to. I try to push you away but you always find away, back to me. Why? Why is it me? I cut and cut but it don't help, just makes things worse. I hate you, and I hate me. Why are you here? I have known you my whole life if only my life was no longer so neither were you. But you would only infected the next. I wish I never felt this way in the first place... Why? oh why do you have to do this to me? I want you gone. I need you gone! But I'm scared the only way away from you, is the wrong way. But why does it feel so right? Why do I think about that way everyday and every minute of the day?? Is it to late?