Depression

I can't describe it I'm just not happy here I would go through with it If i knew there was somewhere to go somewhere else to go but i don't and i hear people talk about it all the time but i have trust issues I don't know if i can believe them if there really is such a place as great as they are describing I would just do it get it over with but how do i know that it exists and i'll go there maybe it's a risk to take but then again i can't believe what i can't see so maybe the only real place that exists is where i'm at right now