As this sea tosses restless, the same does my soul.
Where is my Salvation? What can make me whole?
These questions left unanswered as the water engulfs all.
And while I beg for mercy, what will stop my fall?
Will it be the saving hand of someone I hold close?
Or maybe a beast of the depths that people fear the most.
Will it be the spirit of God? I just don't think He cares...
I contemplate this as I sink in an ocean of despair.
Despair pulls life from my body. I take a shallow breath.
I think about the decisions that got me in this mess.
All the years I wasted attempting to live the perfect lie.
Doing my best to cover up failures. Can't let them see me cry.
The friends and loved ones I did wrong, the talents I put to waste.
Everything gone up in smoke, trying to run a impossible race.
I heave a sigh and let it go. I release the grudge I held.
I find that the only person I have left to forgive is myself.