Despair

Emotions swirling in the wind

Trapping me in the tornado of despair

Feeling emotion has done me no good

I act impulsively and take inaccurate steps

Nothing like the psychopathy that I once clung to

I hate the emotional dependence and all the cons of that lifestyle

My cold and calculated nature slips away in a gust of wind

Like the way a leaf does when falling as summer leaves us

I am losing my way

I am losing how I live

I’m losing myself

The way I lose my keys or how I am losing ability to feel no emotion

I have developed the inability to think logically

I act on principal and moral codes

Something I used to never understand

What has sprung this surge of emotion?

Why am I dying?

I am sick and there is nothing I nor anyone could do to save me

May my soul rest after I am gone 

Whether heaven or hell

Whether nothing or something

May I eternally rest in peace 

Without a shred of despair