Desperately calling my name

Dear Aries 

I know you are in another very difficult position right now. All you want is to be heard. Maybe that’s why your quick to jump or be that one heard. You feel as if you do not have an audience at home, and goofing around with your parents is the easiest way to get the attention you crave. You upset others and maybe you shouldn’t take it so personally. You have been so kind lately that you can’t even figure out if that is true or not because of the things you were told. Your depression should fly away Aries, you do not deserve to be anchored down on this ship of sadness. I guess you hurt people a lot and you must accept that. I know you want to say cruel things to yourself but you clearly need love. If you are as mean as they claim you are, forgive them for not seeing how much you desperately need their support, and how much you really need someone to listen to you. You are a powerful woman with so much to say, so forgive yourself when you’ve never been with a man who wanted to hear every last bit. Forgive yourself that you set expectations for somebody to treat you how your mind envisions it. But how else am I supposed to feel happy, respected, and taken care of? When all I can do is show myself to these pages I write on that go no where but behind my hurt heart. To want my words published so I can be heard from all of the continual silence that I once again live with, that draws madness into my mind and fear into my heart. I’m never a hurtful person, but it’s times like these, that you bring out the worst in me.