Despite it I cant stop

I told you it's not just you this time

Sometimes the truth even lies 

It lies between lies and unexpected suprises

When your not recommending commitment

Because you know what I 've been through

You know my love isn't balanced 

Especially when Im not with you

Not saying that you cant believe me

Or that I would go out just cheating

But honestly modesty has me beaten

And I can picture me leaving

I can picture me surfing 

From a person you call perfect

To the one that just hurt you

You see Im not perfect and I never said I was

I went from "I love you" to "I remember when I loved"

And now you hate me and forever make me

Into the person you diss

And your lips still cringe when you think of the kiss

That I gave you when I told you that I craved you

So it seems I still adore you 

Even though you left me so I try to ignore you

No matter how much I ignore you my concious still supports you 

Your imperfections that aren't important I rub your back as I escort them

No matter how many times we fight despite the yells Im still the one that fails

To ignore your calls when I need help and to not reply when Im by myself

Youve been my biggest weakness before I ever told you any secrets

And still to this day you hold the deepest

You call my phone when I am sleepless and whenever I tell you life has me beaten

Seems like your unpredictable and odly smart

Your words are much thicker than your body parts

Now of days thats impossible to find

Love is difficult but you taught me that the hardest obstacle was "trying"