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United Kingdom
53° 43' 8.5008" N, 2° 4' 22.0224" W

People I know so well,

Attempt to embrace me,

Met with,

Half-measured enthusiasm.

 

Birthdays, Weddings, and festivals

Everyone is united,  Shared joy,

Feel locked in a room,

Forced smile on my face.

 

Long term friendships wither,

Don't return their calls or texts,

Pretending to be busy,

Project or abroad.

 

Often seek solace in nature,

Preferring,

Tree's to people,

Animals over those who are, supposedly, close.

 

Many times,

Chosen to be Marlon Brando,

Trust and stocism

Ones heavenly traits.

 

Days go by,

Darkness of past smoothers, suffocates,

My innocent heart,

Feeling bewildered, no longer recognsing person I'm meant to be.

 

Void within,

Creates a gulf,

Those I care, on the other side,

Leaving me stranded on an island.

 

Seeking an escape,

Eternal grief,

All my known life,

Left wondering.

 

How to put the pieces back together,

Feel alignment,

Once 

More. 

 

Events of the past,

So long ago,

Emotional wounds,

Still there.

 

Impossible to live,

Life in the present,

when my head is turned to the past,

Stumbling into boundaries, directionless.

 

Please,

Someone put me back together,

The pieces,

Scattered far and wide. 

 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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