Dharmas Friend

What does it mean to love? This question has haunted me for nearly 30 years. I've seen and experienced what others believe is love but after all these years I'm not sure there is a word in the English language that can entirely describe this feeling. The Chinese philosopher Lao Tzu was quoted as saying "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.". 

 

Having mentioned the profound Tzu I would be amiss not to mention the Jewish American writer's beautifully put description of love "Love is the irresistable desire to be desired irresistibly.". To me, this sits a bit closer to home. As I seem to want to only be wanted by the one who makes me want to be seen. Oh, the codependency of it all! The absurdity is that we could even completely understand this feeling of what we call "Love". 

 

Love is as Nicholas Sparks stated" Love is like the wind..." Over the millennia humans have attempted to describe this internal struggle to be needed in the course of finding true love. The more time I spend in contemplation of the conflicting at times question of "What do I want and is what I want and need the same or are they in conflict with each other for the span of this lifetime? 

 

Needing to be validated by another living person in life is instrumental for the growth of the human experience. Although validation is not something I have ever truly believed I needed until I did. The type of validation I am seeking is something I only think I can award to myself. Seeking it outside of myself has led to the destruction of so many personal relationships in my life. People are prone to believing we can jump into another's experience and this notion tends to lead to bad advice and hurt feelings. 

 

Where do I begin and you end

Am I confused or determined

One decision One choice

Decades amiss

 

The shine of your earthly presence 

all anew yet so familiar

What consumes your thoughts

Is it me

 

Needing validation though I shake

Buyers remorse or is it fate

Half a life spent despairingly 

 

Hopeful it's not all for no

Do I want you as much as I need you

This is it Cant be another

Erasing Dharma in a single experience

The Best is yours

 

Will you accept?