Different day, different reason

In reality we are kilometers apart
But right now in the dark
I feel like you have torn my heart
I can't handle this
Lying here crying over the past
What happened then influences now and the future
Most days I can put it aside
Smile, grin and laugh bending over at my sides
But today I don't feel I can brave face it
Three hours more sleep
Will it come or is it lost?
I don't think I will make it today
Another alnighter crying tears because of a guy
Different day
Different reason
Different guy
This time I don't feel as strong
I don't feel like I can rebuild myself
Let alone pick myself up
I am a mess
Tear stains down my face
My head aching
Eyes drooping but never fully shutting
Tomorrows just going to be another one of those days
Days dull of pain killers, sleeping in class and crying