Different than different

No hope for me no
I want to let everything go
I been dealing with some pain you never felt
Should I just let it all melt
Can't even describe it
But it's still mines to get
Why I can't find it
Never mind it
Right now I'm supposed to be hiding
You can't relate to me
I'm sorry i'm different than different
Oh you don't get it
That's shows how we living 
I was brought up around violence
I call what you had Paris or an Island
But I'm gald at least one of us smiling