Disappear

Gone.

Like everything

Else in my

Life, you’ve

Gone.

The best

Friend I had

And let

Go.

A butterfly

Flutters on the

Breeze, flying

Away.

Away from

Me you’ve flown,

So much

Lost.

Time and

Secrets, lost and

Never loved

Again.

Once more

I say you’ve

Left me

Alone.

Alone in

Dark corners with

Secrets left

Untold.

Untold, lonely,

Unspoken for hours,

Days, weeks,

Months.

Now its

Been a year,

Alone and

Dying.

Many have

Passed, fakes who

Say meaningless

Words.

Once loved,

Now alone, hated,

Despised, yet

Invisible.

Once words

Were a lifeline,

Now they’re

Hate.

So much

Pain and suffering

Packed in

Words.

Unloaded on

Ones loved, but

Now are

Hurting.

Once loved,

Now hated, once

Reckless, now

careful.

One word

Can change for

Better or

Worse.

One word

Changes the meaning

Of friendship,

Lost.

Two souls,

Lost in a

World, once

Together.

Now they

Are alone, separated

For a

Lifetime.

Once they

Knew each other’s

Thoughts and

Feelings.

Now one

Word, changed hearts,

And much

Bitterness.

An ending

To all held

Dear and

Precious.

A lifetime

Of love and

Secrets forever

Gone.

Carefully painted memories and much remembered whispered secrets.

Times together,

Now ripped apart

By harsh

Words.

Misplaced, incorrect

Words hurt every

Person so

Much.

Pain held

In for so

Long a

Time.

Now pouring

Out, only when

Will you

Hear?

Never it

Seems, you close

Ears to

Me.

My pleas

And heartache your

Ears close

To.

I go

Unheard for so

Long a

Time.

How long

Until my pain

And suffering

Eases?

My friend,

Hear and respond,

How long

Unheard?

Time doesn’t

Heal, it only

Makes wounds

Deeper.

Times I

Need you go

Unaided and

Piercing.

Pain sears

My heart with

The last

Goodbye.

Words said,

Looks exchanged, and

Yet there’s

Nothing.

Glances with

Different meanings than

We each

Think.

Lost and

Found, yet no

Longer, never

Loved.

Once gone,

Never again the

Same for

Eternity.

Loved once,

Loved twice, loved

Thrice, loved

Never.

Now I

See the fool

I was,

Believing.

Once I

Thought you cared,

But no

Longer.

No longer

Do you pretend,

No longer

Caring.

Pain pours

Out of my

Severed heard,

Bleeding.

Times I

Tried replacing you,

But I

Failed.

There’s a

Hole no one

But you

Fills.

Time passes,

Yet none are

True, like

You.

You showed

You cared, and

Loved me

Unconditionally.

Now I

See how blind

I once

Was.

Believing in

You, I was

So very

Foolish.

Like the

Fantasies of a

Young girl,

Idiotic.

Trying to

Fill the hole

In my

Heart.

Someone to

Care for, and

To love

Me.

All of

My days, living

To gain

Back.

The one

I lost by

My loose

Tongue.

I now

Guard my tongue

So very

Carefully.

No longer

Will I give

Reason for

Leaving.

One can

Never know just

How I

Feel.

Words may

Hurt, or heal,

But not

Convey.

Words are

Inadequate to truly

Convey any

Feelings.

To truly

Love or hate

Or care

For.

Yet you

Try to bring

Me such

Pain.

I wish

You could feel

The pain

Caused.

The tearing

Apart and the

Angry, hurt

Glances.

Agony I

Feel by staying

Unheard so

Long.

Once together,

Once loved, we

Knew strong

Friendship.

Now alone,

Now despised, I

Know strong

Pain.

Forever.