Distance

My love,

Distance was the issue

the need to touch and hold you

burned deep inside my heart.

Denied the right to you

made my ask myself

why did I choose you?

Knowing that the longing I 

felt for you would only intensify.

Those long long nights

where I would picture you 

laying next to me again, 

Our bed a dark reminder 

that you were no longer there.

My thoughts would overtake me

tears would flood my eyes, knowing that

all I could do was remember the times

when you would wrap your arms around me

and tell me everything would be alright.

Do you know I dream of us?

becoming one and having a son

praying that the distance between us  would disappear.

The darkness sets in and 

I worry, is he the man I truly love?

or is he a man of convenience?

feeling the loneliness of four long years

I ask again, is he the man I truly love?

Is this love real?........

I will never know the answers to those questions....

my love never returned again.