Do you really want me?

Do you really want me? When you tell me you love me is it real? No I can't trust it out of fear,fear of getting my heart broken again,fear of getting played,fear to never be able to love again. I wonder do you feel what I'm feeling? Do you feel that I'll play you? Do you feel that I dont love you? Do you think I really want you? These are the questions I ask myself are you with me for me or do I love you that much that I'm just to blind to see that your not really here for me. Do you really want me a question I constantly ask myself daily. Now that your gone I've been a wreck lately don't know what you doing who you talking to wonder will our conversations grow or get shorter wonder if your going to want someone local shit maybe she was right maybe you are going to leave and find somebody new to suit your needs maybe you'll  stop loving me. Mhmm that have me thinking if you stop loving me then you never loved me from the beginning If you find someone else then you never wanted me from the beginning now I gotta reevaluate my feelings trying to change my out look on you dudes cause you might be Just like them out to get me when I haven't done nothing wrong. you get what you want and leave me alone and the more I overthink I ask my self this constant question of do you really want me?