Do You See Me?

Can’t find my voice 

I freeze;

I feel myself 

Quickly disappear. 

Messed up once

Can’t keep count anymore, 

Messed up again

Look down in shame. 

Too quiet, screwed up again

Not good enough;

Go ahead say it again. 

Once two many times

I fail and fail again, 

I say something I don’t mean

People stare, and I wish I wasn’t there. 

Escape at my fingertips

A book or two away,

Grab the pen

And let my emotions flow away.  

There I don’t have to strive

For perfection,

Don’t have to jump

To a place I can’t reach. 

I can be myself 

Flow backwards and out of time,

Where being just me

Is good on it’s own. 

Where I don’t need

To fake it to make it

Or impress anyone

Where I am good,

And good is enough. 

Where perfection isn’t real

And imperfections make you glow,

Where you could be yourself 

And not afraid to let go. 

To you I may sit 

Sheltered in one place,

Yet in reality 

I’m traveling all over the place. 

I have my flaws

My imperfections,

To many I’m invisible 

But many makes no difference, 

To be seen by one is all we need. 

Now tell me

Do you see me?