Do you still love me?

Am I still one of your own? Do you still love me? A righteous man may fall 7 times but he still gets up! I fell seventy times, well more than that... Is there hope for us? I get it! what I do won't make us right, Because faith right? Listen I knew what I was doing, You see my heart, that much I know... I was compensating! I want you to question my trust, No one has ever showed me mercy! No one has ever saw my needs in my faults, I dare say I don't know what love is. God is Gracious, you became a part of my story since the beginning of time... My testimony is right there and seems like nothing more to it! I'm sorry but I feel how I feel inside ! Do you have my back? Do you still love me? Can I count on your protection?