Dolls

I am in a plastic world,

where every limb is artificial,

and every drop of blood in the veins of the dolls around me seizes to flow.

Plastic cannot bleed.

But I am only human,

and to be human is to be imperfect,

and to be imperfect is to be flawed,

and to be flawed is to be defective,

and what right does a defect have to adulturate a flawless globe?

I am in a plastic world,

where one-size-fits all are a standard,

and fabrics pinch tight waists even tighter, and wrap around necks like nooses.

Plastic cannot breathe.

But I am only human,

and I see my body grow,

and to grow is to eat,

and to eat is simply poison in my stomach, causing my body to grow around my plastic bones.

At what point did I cease to be but a doll?

I am in a plastic world,

where each step is down a runway,

and beauty is all that the eye can see.

Plastic cannot be ugly.

But I am only human,

and I distort what I see,

and I see every flaw I have magnified,

and to magnify a flaw is to drown out the perfections,

and to drown out perfection is to leave one deprived and starving.

Can I ever satisfy this hunger?

I am in a plastic world,

where dolls do not eat,

and everyone is perfect.

Plastic is perfect.

But I am only human,

and I eat to feel comfort,

and comfort is found only in perfection,

and perfection is found in purging the mistakes I consume.

Or do they consume me?

I am in a plastic world,

where dolls stroll down sunlit streets,

and happiness is consistent.

Plastic dolls are only ever painted with a smile on, after all.

But I am only human,

and I make mistakes,

and mistakes do not include eating,

mistakes include believing I could be plastic.

But what will happen to the remains of who I am?

I am in a real world,

where plastic is only found in landfills and the ocean,

because the people that walk down cracked sidewalk streets often litter,

and they are no better than I am.

I am human,

and to be human is to be great,

and to be great is not to be perfect,

but to be great is to understand recovery is possible.