Don’t bring it up

When I tell you about my past 

When I tell you about the people that abandoned me 

The ones that was suppose to protect me 

The ones that was suppose to love me 

The ones that was suppose to guild me 

I’m not asking you to save me 

I’m not asking you to fixed me 

I’m not blaming you 

I’m taking full responsibility for who I am & my actions 

I told because I thought you was a safe place 

Wither you was my friend 

My lover 

My fuck buddy 

My yaaaaa yahhh 

My lil thing 

My man 

I told you because at that moment in my life you was my safe place 

I didn’t wanna come off as complaining 

I didn’t wanna come off as ungrateful 

I didn’t wanna come off as if I’m not blessed 

You don’t think I know im blessed 

You don’t think I know I have a reason to smile 

Believe me I know 

I live with the depression the the truth about me 

Sometimes senecios pop up in my head & I tent to believe them

& sometimes they are right 

Then other times they are draining 

I wanna be normal 

I wanna be able to be in a relationship where I don’t have to question my partner loyalty to me