Why won’t I get it?
I have friends both male and female.
I go to parties.
I’m social with others.
I do all these things and yet
Whenever I hear my loved one does it as well
My brain tells me
Just get away.
They will hurt you.
They will leave you.
Run as fast as you can.
Never be taken advantage of again.
Find someone who lacks confidence.
Who you can make dependent on you.
Make them need you.
It’s the only way to be sure they won’t leave you.
They won’t hurt you.
On repeat, over and over and over.
The only way I’ll find happiness
Is in the apocalypse
Where we are the last ones standing.
Then you’ll have to be with me.
Find someone who no one else will want.
Then all they’ll want is you.
And it is at these moments that I realize.
I’m exactly like him.
The abused become the abuser.
The vicious cycle begins.