Dpressed

I don't tell nobody what i'm feeling inside beacuse im dpressed, I feel like i can't trust nobody in my life. I always cut myself to see what it is like to feel the pain. My heart feels like its broken, i should be die beacuse of the way i cut myself its crazy. I hate my life it is so fucked up, I have a boyfriend but he does not know that i cut myself beacuse im scared. Im scared that im running out of time to live nobody can not save me our my soul im on the edge.